mixed feelings

Woohoo!!! i'm finally free after a whole month...yes, 30 days of mind cramming, energy wasting and mood swinging sessions...bah!! its all over !! I'm finally a 6th year student!!! Time just pass so quickly!! Seems like it was just last year that i arrived in volgograd, and poof...in a wink of an eye i'm already one step closer into the working world.

Well, as promised, the boy did bring me on a shopping spreeeeeee...=) got myself a skirt (wow!), a dress (lagi wow!) and a top...all from the boy...*muax* (ok, 'wow' sebab...well to those who know me well, Cherrie doesn't usually search or choose or hunt clothings like those while shopping...so yea...).

I'm still stuck in Volgograd (stupid russians!!). I'll be here till the 17th where after rushing to finish the ambulance exam, i'll be headed straight to the train station to catch the 5pm train to Moscow and then the next day to Bangkok and then its HOME SWEET HOME...see, so near yet so far...urgh!!

Truth be told, i'm not 100% the cheerful self of mine...though i may seem just like it in front of everybody. Never has my tear ducts been this active before for the past few days...The boy has left for home just this evening...I know that i'm not exactly the "clingy" kind...but to know that his presence won't be there 24/7 kinda sucks... I won't have anyone to hear my stupid complains, to tend to my stupid lame-o questions, to bear with just me coz i'm such a nuisance and a miserable individual...-_-", no more big huge smile in bed when i wake up on the weekends, no more evening walks, no more big hugs, no more racket-ball sessions in the evening (no one to push my swing too!!! haha). It has just been 5 hours since he left, and i'm already missing him alot...thoughts of all the fun times we had, all the silly things he did, and the times he pissed me off kept running through my head all the time...and only brings tears to my eyes...wth...ok, i shall stop being all softy now...cis!

Stupid national service...if it wasn't for you i would be able to spend time with the boy during my summer...grrr...

Anyways, on a happier note...i'm looking forward to more dinners, paintball, water-gun fights, bowling sessions and minum sessions...=) oh, yeshhh....

Sigh...i just got a sms from the boy.... Oh Cherrie, stop tearing already!! ish~

Darl, I miss you~